Courage

I can't explain how blessed I feel right now. Being with Vic is like honeymoon all over again. I'm not bored or tired of being with him. Times spent with him pass by so fast and feel so short. I can walk for 2 mrt stops with him and yet it felt like 5 minutes only. When we actually chatted up for an hour during the walk. (Bet we burned hellva lots of calories that day)

I remember every moment we spent together, notice every little thing he does and the things he didn't do. Sure, every couple has their fall outs. No doubt Vic and I went through a rough patch too. But it was the first time I faced up to things. I didn't have to run away or hide anymore. I really fought against my nature this time for Vic. Because he's worth it. I told myself to be more understanding and honest about everything with him. And things started to work out. He made me feel safe, and protected. I've finally found my shelter. Ever since initial d left me all wrecked, I never thought I could find my happiness again. Until Vic came along. The amount of happiness I feel right now is unmeasurable and limitless. Thank you God for this wonderful gift. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

I really hope I'm not being selfish or greedy to ask for this one last favor. But, dear Father, will you please make this paranoia go away? I need assurance. I need closure. I need your enlightenment. Please. In Jesus' heavenly name I pray with all my heart, amen.

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 Thank you Father, for everything. Faith, trust, and hope. There's something I can believe in again. I can feel your love and blessings, and I will not take them for granted. I'm kicking away my bad habits, washing away my sins to not let you down. Hope it's a great start to something even more. I love you.